It was 5:35am when I jumped out of bed and 5:40am by the time I made it downstairs. In kind, I was well rested and ready for whatever the day offered.
After making quick work of my morning calisthenics I was out the door with my favorite boy dog, Ykraps. As we walked, I mulled over some deep seated anger over a work related issue that I just couldn’t seem to shake even though I knew I shouldn’t allow such folly to cause this much consternation in my life. I have to find peace outside the antics of others I can’t control. Easier said than done, however.
I returned to the house and quickly made some coffee for myself and then for Mindy. After delivering hers beside, I took to the deck to meditate. I was totally immersed in my meditation when out of nowhere I heard some strange noises around me. Keep in mind it was still totally dark. Because of my state, it didn’t initially register. Suddenly, my fight or flight kicked in and jarred me awake. As I opened my eyes and my heart beat quickened, simultaneously a varmint stirred and scampered away from the steps of my deck making a very strange and awkward noise. I’m certain that I scared it as much as it scared me. After that ordeal it was hard to let go & refocus. I went inside to begin the rest of my morning ritual.
I packed my lunch and Mindy’s mid-day snack as well as both of our breakfasts. By 7:00am we were both enjoying a hot breakfast at the island counter. Jacob was up and enjoying his usual chocolate milk, too.
After some hugs goodbye I headed up to get a shower. While rinsing shampoo from my hair, Mindy made a brief appearance with Bella in tow to give me one last kiss goodbye. I could tell that she had just woken her from a deep slumber. Poof, they were gone.
Before I finalized preparations for take-off, I played a little guitar and cruised the house for anything out of place. All systems were a go. Lat minute I decided to forego the BM’er and once again drive the Trooper based on a slight chance of late afternoon showers. There were some deep gray clouds to our west and the sun shining in the east. Immediately I detected the lower leg of a rainbow hovering off in the distant sky approximately where my office building’s located. As I continued on my journey to work the rainbow did nothing but grow in detail and size. I was in awe. It was spectacular! By the time I had arrive in the parking lot at work, it sat just to the west and was a perfect semi-circle. As I walked into the building another rainbow arched its way over top of the original making a double rainbow. Awesome! I was disappointed that I didn’t have my camera in tow. I tried in vain to use my cell phone camera only to discover the memory was full.
The episode, if nothing else, elevated my mood. When I walked into the office many were gathered at the window admiring the rare beauty. One of my engineers pointed out that the tail sat literally out on our lawn, so it was truly arching our property. I called Mindy from my cell so that she could possibly share in the beauty and with her class. She looked out her western window and then her playground but could not see it. Too bad. Minutes later it faded to nothing.
My day progressed at the usual fast pace and before I realized, it was already past time for my run. Once again it was plenty warm enough to run without a shirt, which is something I won't be able to do much longer at least with regularity. I could even feel the heat radiating from my skin like mid-summer. Another sure sign that summer's over was the angle of the sun. It's sitting just north of forty five degrees above the southern horizon. I returned from my run fulfilled and ready to settle in to an afternoon's worth of fun at the office. During the afternoon I made a winterization appointment for the boat at Paul's Marine -yet another sure sign that summer's gone. :( The appointment's not until October 28th in hoping there will be that perfect opportunity to boat at least once more.
As the afternoon wound down my attention turned towards my evening at home. My plans included grooming the lawn. When I departed from work and phoned Mindy, she indicated that we would be having wings for dinner. I knew the lawn would take until at least 7pm, so I would be eating late and possibly alone.
After getting a few household chores completed I changed quickly into my lawn boy attire and then made a dash for the garage. I made quick but thorough work of my lawn chores. It looked fabulous when I finished. While in the garage switching from the push mower to the tractor, I heard Bella crying louder than usual from inside the house. My curiosity got the best of me so I went in to see what was the matter. She had just received a timeout for defiantly pulling Mindy's pearl bracelet apart after being asked not to touch it. Not only did she knowingly disobey the request to leave them alone, she went on to bust the link casting many of the precious pearls about the kitchen floor. Mindy was furious, I could see it in her eyes. I ducked out quickly after seeing that Mindy had things well under control.
I went right for the shower after finishing the lawn. After a fast shower I was downstairs to enjoy some wings & celery. I topped the already delicious wings with an additional coating of sauce only this time I used the green Tabasco over Pete's baked on wing sauce. The combination was to-die-for good. I enjoyed every last one. After I finished the wings I had the final piece of keylime pie that I had made a week or so earlier. I decided then that it was time to use my phone-a-friend option and call Kelly, my ex, to discuss creating a united game plan to help Lindsey get on her own two feet. My expectations were tempered before the call, but I had no idea Kelly was going to be so ridiculous and out of control.
Bottom line, she refused to accept the idea of creating a joint plan as well as having Mindy's involvement in any fashion. Her rants drifted wildly from topic to topic, most of which centered around tangible household items we acquired throughout our marriage (Courtney's old saxophone and a few framed prints). The relevance to helping Lindsey get better, I have no idea. Anyway, our conversation degenerated quickly and before I knew it she was screaming and swearing like a truck driver, and doing so in the presence of Lindsey and I assume lil' Rocky. I could hear Lindsey getting upset in the background. We were going nowhere fast, but that's often the case when talking to her. Nothing she said was constructive. Instead, everything out of her mouth was destructive or vindictive. I could easily see how and why Lindsey feels the way she does. When I'd try to redirect our discussion back to topic, she'd railroad it again. Sadly, she never once committed to doing anything proactive to help Lindsey. Instead, she spoke in circles. And just as Lindsey had told us, she left everything in doubt and up in the air, open to interpretation. If you asked me, Kelly's already checked out of life and has seemingly accepted an existence of misery. She certainly isn't role modeling a happy healthy existence, and the responsibility we have for being a co-creator of our own abundance. Our conversation ended when she hung up. I'm of the opinion now more than ever that Lindsey will never get better as long as Kelly plays a prominent and influential role in her daily life. Bottom line, if things persist as they are today, we all lose - most notably Lindsey and lil' Rocky. I've never been more disgusted with her antics.
Mindy and I talked afterwards. We began formulating a strategy to help without the aid or participation of Kelly. Sadly, we concluded that Lindsey's best opportunity for success will come only if Kelly's negative influence is not a major factor in her life, which equates to Lindsey spending significantly less time around her or her house.
Around 9:30pm we headed upstairs for bed.
It was 5:35am when I jumped out of bed and 5:40am by the time I made it downstairs. In kind, I was well rested and ready for whatever the day offered.
After making quick work of my morning calisthenics I was out the door with my favorite boy dog, Ykraps. As we walked, I mulled over some deep seated anger over a work related issue that I just couldn’t seem to shake even though I knew I shouldn’t allow such folly to cause this much consternation in my life. I have to find peace outside the antics of others I can’t control. Easier said than done, however.
I returned to the house and quickly made some coffee for myself and then for Mindy. After delivering hers beside, I took to the deck to meditate. I was totally immersed in my meditation when out of nowhere I heard some strange noises around me. Keep in mind it was still totally dark. Because of my state, it didn’t initially register. Suddenly, my fight or flight kicked in and jarred me awake. As I opened my eyes and my heart beat quickened, simultaneously a varmint stirred and scampered away from the steps of my deck making a very strange and awkward noise. I’m certain that I scared it as much as it scared me. After that ordeal it was hard to let go & refocus. I went inside to begin the rest of my morning ritual.
I packed my lunch and Mindy’s mid-day snack as well as both of our breakfasts. By 7:00am we were both enjoying a hot breakfast at the island counter. Jacob was up and enjoying his usual chocolate milk, too.
After some hugs goodbye I headed up to get a shower. While rinsing shampoo from my hair, Mindy made a brief appearance with Bella in tow to give me one last kiss goodbye. I could tell that she had just woken her from a deep slumber. Poof, they were gone.
Before I finalized preparations for take-off, I played a little guitar and cruised the house for anything out of place. All systems were a go. Lat minute I decided to forego the BM’er and once again drive the Trooper based on a slight chance of late afternoon showers. There were some deep gray clouds to our west and the sun shining in the east. Immediately I detected the lower leg of a rainbow hovering off in the distant sky approximately where my office building’s located. As I continued on my journey to work the rainbow did nothing but grow in detail and size. I was in awe. It was spectacular! By the time I had arrive in the parking lot at work, it sat just to the west and was a perfect semi-circle. As I walked into the building another rainbow arched its way over top of the original making a double rainbow. Awesome! I was disappointed that I didn’t have my camera in tow. I tried in vain to use my cell phone camera only to discover the memory was full.
The episode, if nothing else, elevated my mood. When I walked into the office many were gathered at the window admiring the rare beauty. One of my engineers pointed out that the tail sat literally out on our lawn, so it was truly arching our property. I called Mindy from my cell so that she could possibly share in the beauty and with her class. She looked out her western window and then her playground but could not see it. Too bad. Minutes later it faded to nothing.
My day progressed at the usual fast pace and before I realized, it was already past time for my run. Once again it was plenty warm enough to run without a shirt, which is something I won't be able to do much longer at least with regularity. I could even feel the heat radiating from my skin like mid-summer. Another sure sign that summer's over was the angle of the sun. It's sitting just north of forty five degrees above the southern horizon. I returned from my run fulfilled and ready to settle in to an afternoon's worth of fun at the office. During the afternoon I made a winterization appointment for the boat at Paul's Marine -yet another sure sign that summer's gone. :( The appointment's not until October 28th in hoping there will be that perfect opportunity to boat at least once more.
As the afternoon wound down my attention turned towards my evening at home. My plans included grooming the lawn. When I departed from work and phoned Mindy, she indicated that we would be having wings for dinner. I knew the lawn would take until at least 7pm, so I would be eating late and possibly alone.
After getting a few household chores completed I changed quickly into my lawn boy attire and then made a dash for the garage. I made quick but thorough work of my lawn chores. It looked fabulous when I finished. While in the garage switching from the push mower to the tractor, I heard Bella crying louder than usual from inside the house. My curiosity got the best of me so I went in to see what was the matter. She had just received a timeout for defiantly pulling Mindy's pearl bracelet apart after being asked not to touch it. Not only did she knowingly disobey the request to leave them alone, she went on to bust the link casting many of the precious pearls about the kitchen floor. Mindy was furious, I could see it in her eyes. I ducked out quickly after seeing that Mindy had things well under control.
I went right for the shower after finishing the lawn. After a fast shower I was downstairs to enjoy some wings & celery. I topped the already delicious wings with an additional coating of sauce only this time I used the green Tabasco over Pete's baked on wing sauce. The combination was to-die-for good. I enjoyed every last one. After I finished the wings I had the final piece of keylime pie that I had made a week or so earlier. I decided then that it was time to use my phone-a-friend option and call Kelly, my ex, to discuss creating a united game plan to help Lindsey get on her own two feet. My expectations were tempered before the call, but I had no idea Kelly was going to be so ridiculous and out of control.
Bottom line, she refused to accept the idea of creating a joint plan as well as having Mindy's involvement in any fashion. Her rants drifted wildly from topic to topic, most of which centered around tangible household items we acquired throughout our marriage (Courtney's old saxophone and a few framed prints). The relevance to helping Lindsey get better, I have no idea. Anyway, our conversation degenerated quickly and before I knew it she was screaming and swearing like a truck driver, and doing so in the presence of Lindsey and I assume lil' Rocky. I could hear Lindsey getting upset in the background. We were going nowhere fast, but that's often the case when talking to her. Nothing she said was constructive. Instead, everything out of her mouth was destructive or vindictive. I could easily see how and why Lindsey feels the way she does. When I'd try to redirect our discussion back to topic, she'd railroad it again. Sadly, she never once committed to doing anything proactive to help Lindsey. Instead, she spoke in circles. And just as Lindsey had told us, she left everything in doubt and up in the air, open to interpretation. If you asked me, Kelly's already checked out of life and has seemingly accepted an existence of misery. She certainly isn't role modeling a happy healthy existence, and the responsibility we have for being a co-creator of our own abundance. Our conversation ended when she hung up. I'm of the opinion now more than ever that Lindsey will never get better as long as Kelly plays a prominent and influential role in her daily life. Bottom line, if things persist as they are today, we all lose - most notably Lindsey and lil' Rocky. I've never been more disgusted with her antics.
Mindy and I talked afterwards. We began formulating a strategy to help without the aid or participation of Kelly. Sadly, we concluded that Lindsey's best opportunity for success will come only if Kelly's negative influence is not a major factor in her life, which equates to Lindsey spending significantly less time around her or her house.
Around 9:30pm we headed upstairs for bed.
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