Tuesday, August 16 - The Reality of Work Sets In

Tuesday brought with it another unusually cool August morning. The skies were cloudy and it rained some throughout most of the early day. The temperature didn't break 70 degrees until mid-afternoon when the sky finally gave way to a little sunshine. Without question, that kinda weather makes me blue. But it does make for excellent running conditions! So, I just suck it up! My day at the office was fast paced and busy. I barely had time to address all of the "big rocks" on my plate. Some how I managed - as I most often do. Because of some important customer issues, I was at the office until around 730PM EDT. That made for a long day. By the time I got home for the day, the weather had fully recovered and it was absolutely superb outside! It was probably around 74 and sunny with next to no humidity. Felt like a September eve. All in all the day was pretty uneventful - especially from a personal life perspective. What can I say, I have a boring life from time to time too. Truth be told, my work nights are often like that almost by design. Don't tell anyone!!! For dinner I made homemade pizzas out of flour tortilla shells, pizza sauce, cheese, and pepperoni that I had originally bought for our camping trip last week. You see, I had planned to use my campfire sandwich press to make them over a camp fire but never got a round to doing it. Probably has something to do with making drinking a priority instead. Anyway, they turned out perfectly baked in the oven tonight. I am a good cook! There's just no question. I decided to take a break from reading & guitar practice tonight. Instead I worked on another special project of mine that I just can't talk about right now, but might divulge at a later time. :) After that I went through my home email. Some thoughts going through my head today.... I feel kind of bad for blowing off a new friend that I had made tentative date plans with for last Saturday night. In fact, for a moment I thought about calling and apologizing but didn't. Where am I head with the rest of my life? Am I afraid of a committed relationship? Why do I gravitate towards difficult relationships and often deny myself the less risky ones (with women that is). Am I ready to tolerate yet another long cold, gray, damp, and dreary Columbus winter? (YUCK!) Am I being charitable enough? Who do I love? Who loves me? Who needs my love?