Sunday, May 31, 2015

No Words ... Intubated - May 25 - 31





Monday, May 25 - Memorial Day 2015

Being the first Monday holiday of the year, it was easy to forget what day it was. Seemed more like a Sunday.

Up around 730am. The gkids, Rocky, Landon, and Olivia, were all three sleeping on the family room sofa. Landon was up and at my side while I prepared coffee. Right away, he asked me to make him an omelet. Poof, you’re an omelet! J

I made coffee for myself and then a cup for both Landon and Olivia since both were up and asking. Landon asks a question every couple minutes. Will you make me an omelet? Will you make me coffee? Can I play Wii? Can we fish? AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Later, while walking Eiknarf with those two, I suggested that each of them only get two questions every 15 minutes. Olivia found in funny and quickly latched onto the “rule”. Landon pretty much disregarded my request, asking several times more for the things he’d already asked. It’s how he and Rocky are wired.

Nearing 9am, I opted to head out on my run before Mindy was up and downstairs. Later, after my run, Mindy shared that the kids were a little wild when she happened upon them downstairs while I was away. Of course nothing bad, though.

I made the kids omelets while also making oatmeal for Mindy and me. After breakfast, I headed out to ready a couple fishing poles for Landon and Olivia. It didn’t take but 2 minutes before Landon to reel in a small bluegill. And even though I insisted they only fish if they knew how and also planned to remove their own fish from the hook, I got stuck doing it. Even Rocky, who insists he knows how, flips out and draws his hand back as soon as the fish flops around in the least. J I think I took three or four off the hook over the next hour.

While the kids fished, I repaired the hose I have buried and running around the perimeter of the house. I guess I mistakenly left the hose on which was enough to exploit the splice I made in the same place a month or two ago. I was concerned how long it had been running, puddling, wasting water. When I found it, it was fully broken and gushing water. I keep an assortment of hose repair parts around, so I had it fixed likity-split.

Mindy and I headed to the hospital mid-afternoon. Dad had been moved out of the ICU but still in isolation which meant we still had to wear masks. He was awake and alert, sitting up in his bed looking over the meal they'd recently brought him. He expressed displeasure with how they left the tray pulled up almost even with his chin which left it almost impossible for him to work with the food. Mindy and I helped rearrange the rolling tray and the height of the bed until it was configured well enough for him to comfortably access his food.

The meal they brought was more like something you would feed a hungry teenager, not someone weak and fresh out of surgery. With a little help, he ate only the sorbet-like concoction. He was weak and spoke very slow, and his breathing looked extremely labored. We were there for perhaps an hour and left when he fell asleep.

 Tuesday,  May 26th

The first Monday holiday now behind us, everyone was up and off to school and work, this the last week of school for the kids. Mindy and I planned on meeting at the hospital, but hadn't yet nailed down a time when she left for school at her usual time of 730am. Both of us were very concerned with his condition.

I planned on going into the office for at least part of the day. I did my usual morning routine; meditation, internet, coffee, exercise and a run. Ran 4 miles. Ended up working from home. Mindy called at some point midmorning to share that she was heading to the hospital after her principal advised that she should go to be with dad.

Dad was moved back to the ICU during the overnight after complications with his breathing. The tried simply increasing his oxygen but eventually reintubated, I believe sometime mid-morning Tuesday. Mindy kept me apprised of his condition via text until I was able to free myself of work responsibilities, shower and get up to the hospital.

In the ICU we met RN Katie. Smart, nice and cute. Not long after my arrival, they whisked dad off for a CT scan. While he was away, Mindy and I hung out in the waiting room. We spent most of that day at the hospital with dad largely unresponsive, and I am pretty sure that it was a two visit day. We left for home still awaiting the pathology report, which would identify more specifically the type of cancer and thus steer the prognosis and treatment plan.

May 27 - 31

Dad was intubated and would remain so until his final day, hours, and minutes. We began this next phase of his hospital stay with hope, hope that dad would come home from the hospital well and live the rest of his life much as he had lived the last few years, waking each morning, going to breakfast, going to the casino, then spending time doing whatever he wanted. We asked the ICU staff, including nurses, doctors, and surgeons seemingly all the right questions. I don't believe even once did their answers prepare us for such a short number of days remaining.

Over the course of the next 12 days, however, hope began to fade when they were unable to isolate and solve an apparent infection causing his body temp to rise each night near 103.5 degrees. And while they were successful at managing it down with Tylenol, they never did positively identify its cause. The goal was to overcome the infection and then help him get his strength back before any chemo or radiation treatment.

His days in the ICU slowly but surely began to add up. And for all of us, the days began to blend together. As a result, we struggled to recall with certainty what happened on which day. Friends and family came and went, including visits from his dear friends Pete & Vicki Simsic, his sister Ruth and two of her kids, David & Elizabeth.










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